Shhhh...the topic is Divorce...

Why is it, when I ask my divorced friends about divorce, it's suddenly a taboo topic. Are they still hurt and bleeding over it, and it's my bad for asking?  I have questions and I want answers and no one seems to want to answer them.  Such as:

1. Will I ever be able to look at my ex as something other than the man that ripped my heart out and stuffed it in alcohol?
2. Will we actually end up friends, or is this a pipe dream I've pulled out of my ass?
3. Will my divorce be easy, or are we going to rip each other to shreds over the crappiest of things like, oh...I don't know...stupid knickknacks I could care less about?
4. Will we survive a month on vacation together, or should I pack it in now?
5. Is he expecting sex?  Cuz it ain't happenin!
6. Will I ever be attractive to the opposite sex?
7. Is there a big huge "D" on my forehead that everyone can see?
8. Will I ever get my self-worth back?  Cuz a man choosing addiction over me, is pretty fucking damaging!
9. Will I change in the eyes of my kid over this?
10. Will I ever be held in someones arms and feel safe again?

I'm just saying...once this is all over, if someone asks me, I'm gonna tell them everything I felt so they'll be prepared.  I just don't feel prepared over this. I think I'm a dreamer over what I'm expecting.  I think the storm is coming and I'm just not ready for it.  I call it the "Sarah Conner Syndrome". Ah, well...I'm going to bed.  2  more work days...one more prep day...and I'm off to Cabo for 30 days with the ex and friends.  Pray for me.  I'm worried about the stuff I can't anticipate.