Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Intimidating???

So I was talking with D about B and his new bride about a month back.  She tells me that his bride is intimidated by me. What???  What is there to be intimidated about?  I'm a laid back chick and I try to be friends with everyone (until it's not possible...but I try).  I don't worry about past loves because I loved them for a reason, and there's really no reason for me to hate them.  I was friends, I am still a friend and I will continue to be a friend and I can respect their new partners.  I would never intentionally intimidate their partner.

In talking with my ex, he says his new girl is intimidated by me also.  What???  I am not the intimidator.  I guess it kind of baffles me.  I hear this on the outside, but in the inside, I feel like small and insignificant.  Sometimes I feel like I don't matter.  I know everyone feels this at some time or another.  But I'm not here to intimidate people.  I want them to be happy.  Does that sound weird?

I was telling this to my buddy J. And she says "Well, duh! You fucking rock.  Of course you're intimidating!"  What's strange is because I've been feeling small, to hear her say that made me feel like a million bucks, even though it still felt strange.  And the thing is, she's this beautiful, statuesque blonde goddess.  If she can say that about me, I guess I need to just accept the compliment with a smile. Because she is all that and more.

So, it was a strange compliment, but I feel a little more confident again.  Thanks J.

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