Being 50

You know, I never really thought about 50 being a huge milestone.  Party wise, well...DUH! But I don't feel old. I'm showing signs of age, but I'm aging ok.

But then I look around me.  I look at men my age, but I don't think they look my age.  I think most of them look older. I think they act older. I think the things they're focused on are not necessarily the things I'm focused on.   Is it me?

Do I need to re-adjust my perception and come down to earth? Am I unrealistic? Are my expectations to high?  Am I conceited to want something more or to think that I am worth something more?  I'm looking around me and I'm not sure about what I'm seeing.  I just know that what I'm seeing isn't me. It doesn't feel like me.

Just some random thoughts and recalibration.