Cabo Time - October 23rd

Well, my friend Denise's plane has just landed, so I'll go down to the lobby in about a half hour to greet her. I'm looking forward to their visit because it releases stress from being around the man. Although to be fair, he's been ok the last two days, but he drinks beer like it's mother's milk.

We'll kill some time around the beach until the condo is cleaned, then come back and do some cooking and some drinking. Since my friend Chris and her husband won't be here till sometime between 8 and 9 p.m. we'll have to hold off dinner. We're making bacon wrapped tuna in teriyaki and bbq sauce (Thanks Rog), cilantro infused mashed potatoes and salad. Of course, there's the awesome salsa and chips that seems to go with everything these days.

Now, I must make another committment to watch my cool, and to watch what I say. Certain things can not slip past my lips in front of the man. No, I've done nothing to be ashamed of or anything, but I don't need to rub salt in the wound either. We're separated, we're divorcing and nothing is changing that. Our lives are separate now and need to stay that way. If it wasn't for my stupid decision about this vacation, we'd still be apart. Vacation doesn't make a difference.

The maid just brought in a whole new mattress for my friends staying in the room with the two single beds. Now they'll have a king size bed to sleep on also. They are the greatest here. I love WorldMark! Not too hoity toity, clean, comfortable. I can't believe I'm saying this but I'm glad I bought into timeshare. It wasn't what I wanted to do, but the man talked me into it, so we started out small, i.e. a week every two years. We ended up purchasing two weeks a year and it was paid for, then we heard Wyndham was purchasing Trendwest, so I'm not paying for two more weeks. That's why I'll end up with three weeks in the divorce, the man get's half of what is paid off, which is one week. Since I continue to pay for the additional weeks, they're mine.

Ah well, I know I sound callous and everything, but I do it for self-preservation purposes. For the longest time I never made plans that we would be apart, although I should have. Now that I'm actually doing it, it's real and there's no going back. I notice the man doesn't talk about it, so it isn't real to him. I tried on so many occasions to tell him this was coming, but he wouldn't listen. I even told him the signs he should be looking for. Still didn't listen. Now that it's here, he avoids the subject like the plague, unless I force the issue.

Ok, enough of that, One more week in Cabo, and I'd better make it good! Smooches my friends.