Losing It

I'm losing my hair.  I've always had the thickest hair around. How thick? Well, one time, while it was french braided, someone put an ice cube on top of the braid at the top of my head. 15 minutes later, everyone was commenting that I must be drunk because I didn't notice the ice. but when we felt under the braid..the moisture hadn't sunk through.

Ever since Tough Mudder, my hair has been coming out in massive amounts (at least to me). No one notices because my hair is so thick.  But this morning, as I was combing through my hair after the shower...using an extremely wide tooth comb...a big amount came out.  Enough to really scare me.  Is it stress related?  Did I stress out my body with Tough Mudder and haven't recouped yet?  I don't know.

To top it off, I have some pigmentation issues with  my skin that's freaking me out. White circles that stand out against my olive complexion skin.  When the sun gets to it, they turn red...they don't tan.  That scares me too.  So I've scheduled a doctor appointment for the day after I get back.  I just feel like the hits keep coming.

For every accomplishment I'm making, there's something else setting me back. Now with the sensor, brakes on the car, tree removal, car insurance, etc...money is flying out the window and my cash reserve is about gone.  Not good. I'm about sick of men, and although a good friend volunteered to meet me in Tennessee for the wedding, so I'd have someone with me for my 50th...I'm so sick of men, I just don't want any encumbrances.

On the other hand, I've completed the Mudder...my Goal for 50.  I turn 50 in a couple of days, I have good friends including the one willing to drive 4 hours to spend my birthday with me. I'm going to Oracle Open World, which I didn't expect my work send me, and although my project is delayed, I have a great team.

Time to suck it up!