Dancing....

So today, I downloaded Bruno Mars, and was listening to the song "Marry You" and I started busting my moves while walking to the printer.  And then, the bug just hit...and when it does, you just roll with it.  I was singing, smiling and dancing down aisles, cubicles and a couple of my programmers on the project.  They correctly assumed I lost my mind, and I did...temporarily.  I danced all the way to a conference call.  It felt so frakking good.

I ended up leaving work early and met my buddies at Rio City Cafe on the river.  We sat outside and the weather was perfect.  We laughed, we shared stories about Kirk. We just had a great time.  We decided that we needed to do this at least every two months...and so a tradition is started.  "C" was our token guy, and it's always fun to mess with him.

Afterward, I drove the beast home and was just feeling it...I don't know how else to describe it, but I was doing some serious driving, moving the Durango in and out of the rush hour traffic and just enjoying it.  I like that the Durango is so responsive....despite being so large. And no one fucks with you when you're in a big vehicle.  No, I wasn't excessively speeding, just feeling the road and the moment.

I got home and put my standing mirror (jewelry case) together, and while exceedingly frustrating since the screws on the door were stripped, I still managed it, and replaced the screws with slightly larger ones. I also steam cleaned the concrete floors and started the soup base for Mother's Day Dinner for my Mom.

I realized at 10 that I left the shed light on and the door opened.  I'm dressed in a simple thin cotton night shift, but I headed out anyway (I don't have close neighbors) and locked it up.  I had to stand outside for a bit because it as so damned perfect.  The temperature is just right with a slight breeze and the air smells so good.  My hair was being ruffled and I could feel the breeze sliding across my skin.  It's those moments that you just stop and breathe. In that exact second everything is right.  Nothing else matters, i.e. the job, the money, the bills, the fact that I'm single and alone...it was just right.

My friend T and I talked about it this afternoon...i.e. the whole dating thing and how we just don't get it.  It just feels weird.  We don't know how to interact with guys...i.e. when you go out with a guy, do you call him afterward? Does he call you?  Does it matter? What happens if a few days go by, is that ok?  If you don't talk to him for a few days, does he take it personally? What if he doesn't call you...do you take it personally?  Is it a message that he's not that interested? She's met someone and they've had a couple of dates.  It's still new, so she doesn't know how to read him and she doesn't know what her next steps are...although they're having dinner tonight, so she can't be doing to badly. We both agreed that while we don't mind being single, we miss just "being" with someone, i.e. having them in the room or the bed.  Don't necessarily have to be doing something to them, just the feeling of their presence.

I told ya'll about my date and he's got some things going on in his life, so I've just been giving him his space. I just left him alone because I figured that he needed that right now, and if he didn't he would let me know.  But I'm kinda like a guy that way.  I don't think he needs me calling, texting, etc if he's got business that he needs to take care of. So, I don't worry about it.  And since I have a couple of things I need to figure out, I'm not in a position to do a serious pursuit with him.

Plus I've got vacation coming and since I'll be out of town, it's just better that I focus on that.  I think my buddies are worried that I'm not going to explore all my options due to the whole CC thing.  I think they're worried that I'll come back home and lock myself in the house and not go out or see other people. My BFFs just need to relax.  Everything will be just fine. I'm old enough to not believe in the fairytale hype and it's not like I'm scribbling this guy's name all over my notebook or something (well not as far as anyone knows...).  But there's nothing wrong with just enjoying his company and he's funnier than hell! If  person can make you laugh, then that's a friendship to hold on to.

Ah well...Tomorrow I'll be up nice and early to make beans and salsa for my BFF's birthday celebration.  Not sure I'll be blogging tomorrow..depends on what time I get home. Which reminds me...I gotta pull out a swim suit for this event.  First swim suit event of the season. We're gonna have some fun, so I better get my tushie into bed.  G'nite Peeps!