Forever Love

Where to begin...well, I will blog about my trip to Georgia this weekend, so consider that forthcoming.  However, tonight's blog is about me and my Marine...so suck it up bitches.

First let me say that I'm pretty "lit up wicked" so whatever I say will be truthful...if somewhat misspelled...because frakking spell-check didn't catch it. Ah...where to begin....

Well my friends...I NEVER thought I'd be here, and blogging this stuff. My Marine has taken it to a whole nuther level and I actually....LOVE IT!  OK, I'm not gonna lie, I'm confused and bewildered by it all, but I promised I was not going to analyze it...and I'm not.

Yesterday was my birthday.  And my Marine asked "It's my 'Forever Love's' birthday?  I replied "I'm your 'Forever Love'?" and he replied..."You have to ask?"  When I shared that with my BFF "K" she said "Words you've never heard and always should have." And she totally got it.  What's funny is that she knows that I haven't heard those words, but my Marine finds it hard to believe that I didn't.

Worse...today is 'D' day...that's right, Divorce Day.  And it was official two years from today (I had to beg and plead for them to move it a day).  It's bittersweet, but I don't look back with regret. On the contrary, my Marine has taken this to a different level and I'm not wishing for a different result. As a matter of fact, I'm really happy with where I am and not knowing or analyzing this moment.  It's two years today, but we were apart for a year and a half before that, so it isn't like this is new or anything.

Yes, I wish my Marine was here this weekend to help me over the "B-day and "D-day" crap, but this is a man that says that he is trying to "Woo me every day" and when I thanked him for it, he said "Oh no it's my pleasure. It's what makes my day!!"  OMG, really?  If this guy is providing the top-notch "CON" then he is the ultimate master!  He is a GOD of CON!!!

But you know me...I always run this crap past my "Sista's from anutha Mutha".  The consensus is that my Marine is NOT talking crap cuz the stuff he says is not bullshit.  He would have to be the effing 'AntiChrist', and he isn't.

Seriously, sitting in front of my keyboard, and even though I'm lit up on whipped creamed Meyer lemon drop martini's...I'm still humbled by a man that says to me that he thinks of my name, combined with his last name.  REALLY???  I'd never thought I'd marry again, and this man makes me think it could be a possibility. Am I worthy? Do I deserve this? But he is a man that I'd never willingly let go of!

On that Note.  G'nite my friends.   You remind me that no matter where we come from or what we do, things are not always what they seem to be.  I appreciate that my man loves me from afar. Thinks  of me and seems to be one step ahead.  And I really need that right now.  I'm not analyzing this my friends.  I'm just happy to be and to feel.  And he has me doing both.  Ok...I'm gonna say it...Geez...here it goes..I am in love. I fucking love the feeling!!!  I like that he has me off-kilter. I like that he knows that I over analyze...and he still loves me!!! ME!!!  He wants ME!!!  There are other men out there, but they are not him...and I don't want them.  I want him! And OMFG, he wants me.

Peace Out!!!