Thursday, October 17, 2013

Transitions

There are times in your life where things shift. Life events like divorce, job loss, kids, etc., begin a chain reaction of thoughts and actions that sometimes you're prepared for, and sometimes you're not. And the hard part is...you never know where you're going to end up. 

Sometimes you're not the only one making these transistions. People around you are making transitions at the same time and you're never sure if, once it plays itself out, your relationship will be the same, stronger, or if you'll lose them. 

At my age, I treasure the friends I have and the friendships I have made. I hope that they survive my transistions, but I'm not always sure that they will. On the same token, I have to be respectful of the transitions taking place in their lives also. And this can be really hard.  It's hard to give the people you love the space they need and not suffocate them. You wonder if they'll leave you behind in this process and it scares you.  Maybe because you've been left behind before, or maybe because you've had to be the one to leave someone behind and you know the feeling all to well. 

Life is so short. The losses I've felt in this past year...hell, the past 5 years is a stark reminder that I can't waste what I have. I have to treasure it.

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