Seeing The Good...

I'll be honest...sometimes it's really difficult for me to see the good in people, including myself.  Other times, it's all around me.  We seem to live in a society that wants to put people down.

Just the other day, Joe Montana made a comment about how his 89 team would've beaten the 2012 team.  What the hell was the point of that comment? So what I posted in the comment section was something along the lines of "Marines are brothers and wouldn't tear down their brother or make them look bad.  I think 49er brothers should do the same". It just bothered me.

I've said a lot of things about other people...especially my sister. And in these blogs, I know I'll eventually leech poison out about other people that bother me, i.e. The AntiChrist (step father), etc. I just hope that I build up people more than I tear people down.

Not really sure why I feel so retrospective tonight. No, I'm not PMSing, nor have I had any alcohol. I'm just in a weird place (could be the drugs from the minor unexpected surgery this morning) and, I don't know.  I got a sweet compliment from someone I know and they said that I always do nice things for people. I started thinking about the yin and yang of things. Don't we all do nice things for people, but sometimes, we don't?  I am a firm believer in karma and I do think things come back to bite you in the ass.

I think a lot of times I do things because I want to secure my place in heaven.  And a part of me is so filled with hatred (a small part, but  intense) that I don't think I can ever do enough to make up for the thoughts that go through my head. I cannot see any good in the AntiChrist, because any good he may have done, I feel, was extremely calculated. It was only because he wanted something, or wanted to look good to make up for looking bad and leaving bruises.

But I do try to make a game of it. If I point out the bad in someone, I try to think of something good about them. Very few people in this life are completely rotten inside.

I'm not ready to open Pandora's box tonight. So, I think I'll call it a night.  But before I do, I'm posting this picture that show's the first signs that I'm full of piss and vinegar!  Do you see it?