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I went on this trip to soothe my soul, find some answers and connect with friends and relatives. The trip is a success because I can say that I did everything I set out for, and made some new friends in the process aka "M" and "S". I'm blessed because God gave me a big mouth, so I can usually make friends where ever I go. Let me say that I'm on my third lemon drop, so if my spelling goes to hell...well....
The Ocean has always had a healing aspect for me so I spent a lot of time on the beach. What I didn't realize at this beach is that I'm allowed to build a fire and roast marshmallows without a permit. Next time, it is effing ON! I was able to give proper goodbye to the friends lost. And, as usual, God put my ass into perspective by reminding me that I am small and a particle in this universe...and it is always great to be reminded.
My relatives took me in with open arms, which I wasn't sure of, but so appreciative of. Since they're relatives by marriage, I was afraid that ending the marriage would end us. I was so relieved to find out the opposite. "F" even calls me her Sister-in-law, even though the ex and her are cousins. I know I'll be back to see her. and I know she loves me, and I appreciate that.
I saw my friends "C" and "B" and they are the same people I met in Cabo...fun. vivacious, just good company, and i know I'll be back to see them too. I pray that they'll take me up on my offer and come to stay with me. Between the three of us, we could seriously tear some shit up!!!
And I saw CC. And while I may have answered some questions regarding him, I have new questions that may never be answered. That's ok. It's all about putting this new life of mine into perspective and going forward. He gave me that. He allowed me to do things that I wouldn't normally do. He allowed me to step into the unknown, uncharted territory and that's good for me. My head is where it needs to be, and that's good. Thank you CC. I hope our friendship stays intact, but I'm good with where we're at.
So now comes the hard work until Cabo 2013. Got lots going on this summer regarding work and home. I've got chicken on the grill at the moment, and am extremely thankful that I have the grill of my dreams and my home is mine (ok and the bank, but stiill....). I have friends that love me, and men that are interested in me. I can do this single life...it may not be what I wanted, but I can do it.
i have a trip to Georgia planned for my birthday and I'll be back home in Cabo in October. With a little luck, I'll be there after a successful implementation of my latest project (God help me)!
Life is trade and balance. Still, I'll always be looking for still waters and tranquility. I'll always be looking for a man that worships me more than the next drink. I'll always be working hard to keep what I've been blessed to have. But with my friends behind me, there's nothing I can't accomplish! Love you guys!
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