Things....

I spoke with the Fire Marshall today and there are no issues with me putting up a permanent barrier in place of the gate...WOOHOO!!  Now we'll see what those effers have to say!

I'm a little lost these days.  My mind is so full of crap that I miss the things standing right in front of me.  "J" texted me about missing his waving from his vehicle as I was making a right turn in the Durango. I didn't see him.  Saw the car, but not him.  He said that I was mindless driving and that's dangerous.  I corrected him. When I drive...I'm all about driving! My eyes are constantly scanning the locations of the cars, motorcycles and pedestrians around me. But when my mind is full, I don't see the faces, just the objects and the bodies.

Same thing walking around the facility. People have been saying that I totally ignored their "Hi" or their wave...didn't hear them or see them.  Too much occupying my brain at the moment. I don't mean to insult them or hurt their feelings, it just is what it is.

It doesn't help that my sleep patterns are off and that I'm watching the clock because the buzzing in my head won't subside.  Music usually soothes me, but it's not working right now.  I suspect that I will be on this project longer than anyone anticipated, due to the words spoken by the project sponsor today. This would mean me tracking 10 to 12 projects going on at the same time. It would be my entire focus and someone would have to manage the current projects assigned to me. I couldn't turn down the assignment due to the importance, and my management wouldn't let me, so I'd be on the hook.  This means more sleeplessness.

Got news that another person I work with will be leaving. The landscape of my workplace is changing fast and while I'm generally comfortable with change, I like knowing the players and how I relate to them.  The players are leaving and the new breed is not as vested in the outcome of things.   One of my faves "Sarge" has a retirement party tomorrow.

Sarge has seen many tours of duty, and his Son followed in his footsteps and became an Army Ranger. Sarge is all about the military, conservative, guns and ammo and all the things I enjoy discussing.  I will miss his razzing me, his supply of military calendars for my cubicle, his "cut through the bullshit' demeanor, his flaunting of the American Flag, Reagan poster and other things. I've known him for about 15 years and this is just gonna hurt!  He's watched me change from the sidelines of work and supported my efforts. I just feel like one of the pillars of my foundation has been ripped out.

The second pillar will get ripped out at the end of September when "A" leaves.  I am really gonna need Cabo after this....