Off The Pity Pot

Although I didn't go into work today, due to the pinched nerve in my back, I did decide to pull my head out of my ass and look at things from a different perspective.

Tonight, for dinner, I made myself pasta and took my time with it. Shallots, garlic, green onions, spices, truffle salt, butter/olive oil blend...it was quite yummy. I was tempted to open a bottle of wine with, but I'm a little wined out from the weekend.  Right now I'm sipping on a Fireball 'tini and thinking.

I think the future is going to open up for me. I just have to wait and be patient.  I just have to keep the doors open and the mind open.  Truth be told, I'm doing pretty well at my job..12 years ago, that was a different story.  I had troubles adjusting to being a working parent and it affected my job.  My boss even wanted to kick me out of the unit, but I wouldn't let her. I told her that I would suck it up and gut it out. I did! And it paid off in a big way.

Now, my management tells me that I'm always requested to work on projects and they have to tell people no, that my time is already allocated. I've been fortunate to be awarded 2 years in a row. Now that corporation requested me to speak at their convention. It's a little scary cuz I know how quickly it can all come crashing down...and I KNOW my teams are responsible for how good I look (they rock).

I have to take the same approach to my personal life. I have to let things happen and stop trying to control it.  I can't necessarily control the person I end up with, I just have to be open to having fun and meeting new people.  A couple of my BFFs think I need to "trade up" as they call it, and go for a  man with lots of money. I personally don't want a man with a stick shoved so far up his ass that he can't relax and have fun.  I need a fun man.  I don't really care about the money per se...I would like him to have a job and be able to take care of himself. Other than that...I don't I'm that picky. As long as he's not threatened with me doing me, and he's a secure, confident guy, I think we'd be just fine.

A friend is thinking about going back online to find someone...Match.com, or whatever that other one is.  If you've read my blogs, you know that isn't for me. I can be whomever I want to be online, and so can the moron trying to date me.  Not going there! Life is difficult enough without having to work so hard weeding out the idiots from online dating.

I think something is coming around the corner that is going to really shake things up.  I just have to wait for it (something Dizzy always has a hard time with).

Heard from my Cabo friends C and B.  They are too much fun!  I can't wait to see them again, as they really know how to show a girl a good time in P-Town. I'm hoping they take me up on my offer to stay with me in Cali. I know they'd have fun!

G'nite Peeps.