Freaky Assed Shit...

be goin' down tonight!!!  Holy Crap!  Peeps, you know I'm pretty straight-laced...to an extent.  I don't mind getting all freaky deeky with a guy...my guy...but that's pretty much as far as I go.  I'm not into 3 somes, 4 somes, girl on girl, etc.  Don't get me wrong...I've kissed a girl and I've always said that I'd bat for the other team if we're talking Rhona Mitra or something.  But other than that...I am not into swinging, or any other weird-assed shit.

Tonight I was not in my comfort zone.  I ended up at a friend's house and they mixed me one fucking hell of a cocktail.  Mostly tequila.  Ok...I can handle that.  I knew we were BBQing and stuff and there's kids around, so I'd have plenty of time to drink it down, water it down, etc. But after the kids were fed and in their rooms watching a movie, we all decide to head to the pool.  I figure this is fine, no worries.

My friend and her guy is in the pool. He says he's a Navy Seal, etc.  I think he's bullshit with the way he was talking the entire night.  Yeah, he's muscular and all, but I smell douche. It's dark, there's little light, but everyone is joking and laughing...I suspect nothing...until I get into the pool.  Its me, my friend and her guy and they proceed to strip me of my bikini bottoms.  What the eff is up with that? I realize my friend is bottomless and her guy has no clothes on...REALLY?  This isn't my thing People.  But they're insistent and want to do some kind of threesome thing.  Uh yeah NO!  I'm not interested.

Another friend of hers joins us in the pool..Thank God, and she's into the threesome thing.  I retrieve my bottoms, put them on, get out of the pool and head home.  I'm totally freaked out by the whole damned thing. Am I a prude?  I had a chance to do a swinging thing in Cabo, but it weirds me out.  I don't want a stranger's hands on my body...I want the man I am with to have his hands on my body.  I don't want my man's hands on another woman when I am with him.  I fucking better be woman enough or I walk.

I wonder what was up with my friend.  Is she insecure and thinks that the only way to keep this new guy of hers is to let him do what he wants with her girlfriends? I just wouldn't be ok with that. I can keep my jealous streak under control when I'm apart from my guy du jour, but if we're together, that's a different ballgame.  I figure that if we're apart, and we have no commitment to each other, than we have no right to say or be jealous of who the other is with.  Don't like it? Then commit.  Otherwise, shut the fuck up.

I'm freaked People. I'm getting in the shower and washing off the cooties of the pool and of my friend and her guy.  I'll be thinking twice about accepting an invitation to her home...that's for damned sure. No..I didn't do anything with them. Actually I was laughing too hard to do anything anyway...and if you know me, you know my laughter is a nervous reaction to a sexual situation that I'm not comfortable with (I learned that last year about myself).

Fucking A! I'm feeling insecure right now.  AND IT'S PISSING ME OFF!